It just doesn’t feel like there will be an end…

Just wish the pain would stop…the misery…the depression…the constant craving…

Really wish…

You knew that every time we talked…it makes me feel so much better…you think we’re just friends and I’ve always wanted more…

I wish I could just tell you

How much you mean to me…how much I have a crush on you…after all these years…despite everything thats happened in my life…but you will never see that…never see me…you’ll always think its just friends…

Feeling worthless….

That’s all I’ve felt for over 8 years now. 8 years of hell. Guess I deserve it. Being fat, ugly, gross, stupid…all makes sense. Guess my mom and some of (what were) the most important people to me were right all along…

Anonymous said:

I don't know if it'll make any difference to you, but i think you're great. You're brilliant, wonderful, and attractive. You don't know how much you're worth.


Ha this is such a funny joke! Thank for the laughs <3


Anonymous said:

you're amazing.


I don’t feel amazing…


Started using Instagram again…

Follow me if you want: marugby123

It’s funny how a series of events…

can completely throw you over your limit and make you want to jump from the highest place on earth, knowing it would kill you…

Dark Honey Seagrams…

Will be my Valentine today. Drinking away the pain of everything.

Why Try

When no one cares. When you’re nothing. When you’re ugly and dumb and will never be happy. I’m not worth it. What I would give to feel special to someone once again…

Finally 21

I’m celebrating by getting my lip pierced. Fuck that haters. Haters gonna hate

I wish I knew

That someone cared…the blood is the only thing that’s keeping me here

If I make it through wanting to continuing to slit my wrists…

I want a lip piercing and my second tattoo…

It’s been a long time…

And most of you that follow me probably don’t remember me. But…

I started cutting again…it sucks and I hate it but its the only form of relief I have anymore. I’m tired of never being good enough. Never being what people want or expect out of me. I’m just tired of this shitty life. I’ve fought so hard to get where I’m at with school and everything. And I have no desire to move forward anymore. Why try anymore…

I’m ready to give in and give up…